Come Home Running

"Come home running, his arms are open wide,
His name is Jesus and he understands
He is the answer you are looking for
so Come home running just as you are."

These words that you just read, are from a song that Chris Tomlin wrote. I tried to attach the file that allows you to hear it but didnt know how to. So if you want to listen to this song, you can to go projectplaylist.com and type in the song called Come Home Running.
Anyways, the reason that I chose to write about this song, is because this weekend, I was at the FIRST ever At His Feet Ministries Ladies Retreat in Niagara Falls ( previously known as Tulip). This song was one of the ones that we played as a worship team. Kimberley was teaching me this song and while I was learning it, I was thinking to my self I like this song its got a nice tune and the lyrics were powerful, but thats all I really thought about it. All day saturday, I couldnt get the chorus out of my head. The words were playing over and over and they just wouldnt leave.
All through the day, I was really looking forward to doing that song. We had dinner and then came to session, Come home running was part of the worship set. It was a good time and the words were powerful but when I was up there singing and playing, I was so focused on the words and making sure I played the right chords that I really didnt focus on the words.
Anyways, My mom got up to speak and she did an amazing job (as usual). When she was done, there was a time of comeing to sit at his feet and just deal with what is going on in your life. Kimberley and Jason played and sang during this time and I swear that when they sang the chorus, that the words were changed around. I heard a sound of almost someone singing this to me and I know exactly that it was God. He was singing over me and This is what I heard,
"Come Home Running, MY arms are open wide,
MY name is Jesus and I understand,
I AM THE answer that you are looking for
Come home running just as you are."
These words spoke louder than anything I had heard that weekend ( yes, even louder then Tania's scream). It seemed to hit me like a 2 by 4. I knew then that HE WAS CALLING ME. Honestly, when i heard those words, I wanted to get up and leave the room but it felt like physically wasn't capable of doing so.
You know, there are so many times when God is speaking to us and that we get up and leave or walk the other way to avoid what he has to say to us.
I am a very stubborn peron ( now i wont say who i get that from hehe) And have so many times, got up and walked away when I knew that God was calling me. It seemed this time that he was saying, " NO, I am not letting you get up, I am calling you. Let go of all the hurt, worrying and doubt, and Come Home running."
This weekend was hugely refreshing for me as it probably was for everywoman *and man* in that room.
Thanks mom for that reminder that God is calling out for each and every single one of us and please remember that...............

GOD IS CALLING YOU
Love,
Taylar <3

Learning Lessons Through The Tireing Times

Have you ever gotten so tired and upset that you felt like throwing something? HA! well thats how I have felt this weekend.

One of the classes that I am taking at school, is a parenting class and for the past weekend I have had this plastic baby doll. It cries and eats and needs it's diaper changed like a real baby. It even keeps you up like a real baby would. I have to take it with me everywhere I go. I thought it would be fun but it turns out that it is not. Its absolutely horrible.. I am running on like maybe 7 hours of sleep this weekend. It always needs you when it wants something. It comes to you at its convenience, NOT YOURS and its so demanding of time. I complained and even cried at one point.

While I was feeding the baby, I realized that how the baby is to us, is how we can be to God. He is our ultimate parent. We go to him when we need something and we usually demand it on our time. He provides for us what we need to live and he changes us. hehe. not in the same sence as us changing the baby, but when he need a heart change, he is usually there to deal with the stinkyness of our lives. He has unconditional love. He looks past all of our faults and sees us for whats inside.

You know sometimes I wish that I didn't take the course but as I think about it now, I am glad that God "put that baby in my life" to remind me to step back and try to work things out and then if it gets to tough then to turn to God.

Love y'all and Thank you for supporting me on the trip this summer. I am excited for what God is going to do. He has continually proved himself faithful in my life and I am looking forward to what he has in store next in my life
God bless

Taylar Joy.